Sooo, four months. I have been waiting for this to finally happen and now it seems like four months is still a long time :) I was thinking, "hey, four months is going to be an awesome place to be. We will be so close." But now I am starting to see that being content where I am at is a problem for me because I still feel like the wedding is forever away :). Anyways, the pictures that I put up this time are actually from the last engagement photo session we had by this guy named Jason Fukura. He is an amazing photographer. I was on his webpage today just marveling at his work. He did a fun photo session with Nate and I last Sunday and his sweet wife came with him. She was very cool. So, as far as wedding stuff goes, in the last month, Nate and I have got a lot of things done. We got decorations for the church, picked out our cake, we have began to put ideas and things together for music and our slideshow, I had a hair consultation today and have a makeup appt. next weekend, we bought invitations, a guest book, and cake knife and server, and I think there were a few other things but I can't remember. The little details are being filled in now. As of current needs we are still looking at around $1,500 more to pay for the bigger costs of the wedding. This includes the building ($750), the photographer
($600), and the catorer ($200). We are also still needing money for our honeymoon (about $1,000). Any help at all would be so much appreciated because the weight and the stress of this tends to weigh on me sometime.
As far as how I am feeling lately, I guess it's been kind of weird. I am going through my own trials so it seems to affect my excitement for the wedding. I still look forward to it, I just am not bursting at the seams with excitement. I don't like to be anyways because then I feel impatient and that sucks. I am really trying lately to look past the excitement of the wedding day and focus more on the excitement of sharing a lifetime with Nate. I think that I was too focused on one day that I forgot that I would spend a lifetime with him. Committment is a big scary thing but I believe that it is worth it. I think I am starting to have that revelation that another bride I knew had about the fact that your life would never be your own again. But our life is not our own anyways. It belongs to God, sometimes we just choose not to give it to Him. But there is joy in surrendering, and that is what I believe it will be in marriage. Not a continual happiness, but a continual joy and honor to join my life with another. Wow, four more months... very cool.
