2 Months and Counting...

Wow, being two months away feels great! Time seems as if it is slowing down again though. Next weekend is our friends wedding and one week seems like forever. I am sure that they may feel this way. Well anyways, this last month that went by was the toughest month that Nate and I have gone through personally. Now that we are out of the storm things feel normal again, but for a while there I really wasn't sure what things were going to look like. Because of certain reasons there was a possibility that we would have had to postpone the wedding until an unknown date. Nate and I were very broken about this and we relied heavily on God's strength during that time. But God came through and did an amazing thing and now things are right back on track. The month of March was probably the month that we planned for the wedding the least, but personally grew for our marriage the most. it's so hard sometimes to remember that it isn't just about your wedding date- it's about sharing a lifetime together. Getting our focus back on that was a blessing.

One of the cool things that happened this last month though was my Bridal shower. My maid of honor, Krissie, planned the whole thing. I had friends from all different parts of my life there and it was a blast. Krissie had fun games for them to play, I cut the cake with Sonja and she smashed a piece in my face, and we opened presents, most of which were very interesting to open in front of everyone; I will only say that much. One of the games was actually only a game I could play. I had to put on all the silly clothes with a blindfold on. It was funny and embarrassing at the same time. Especially the grandma underwear that went over the pants and skirt and up to my waist. It was an awesome time.
Nate and I were also blessed with Visa gift cards that we are planning to use on our honeymoon. Nate was also blessed with a very large bonus at work because he is amazing at what he does and he is a very hard worker. God has been so good to us through all the downs and now the ups. I am so grateful that we were able to go though the situation and grow closer to the Lord and each other.
As far as how I am feeling lately, I am getting very impatient for everything. It's getting so close and my patience is wearing thin. I need another dose of right focus. It's not hard to get your focus off towards the wedding date. When you first get engaged your focus is thrown off totally. All you can think about is the wedding. But then you get into the planning for a couple months and you realize you have a ways to go yet, so you regain focus again. But when you get close, the focus is lost again. You know it's coming soon and it is so close you can taste it. All I know is that it's going to happen. It may feel like it never will but feelings are deceptive. God told me the other day not to look at how far I have to go but to look at how far I have come. He had me look at all the areas of my life with this truth, and it truly is a wise thing to do. The other day I looked back at my blogs and remembered when I was just writing about my engagement. Wow, time does fly. We have come so far, not just with wedding stuff but in our friendship, our love for each other, and our willingness to grow together. I am coming to realize that these are what is important, and that relationships are a daily learning experience, but I wouldn't trade it for the world. Ahhh, it makes me think of a good time oldie that most would know:
It Had To Be You
Frank Sinatra

Why do I do, just as you say
Why must I just, give you your way
Why do I sigh, why don't I try to forget

It must have been,
That something lovers call fate
Kept me saying: "I have to wait"
I saw them all,
Just couldn't fall 'til we met

It had to be you, it had to be you
I wandered around, and finally found
The somebody who
Could make me be true,
And could make me be blue
And even be glad, just to be sad
Thinking of you

Some others I've seen,
Might never be mean
Might never be cross,
Or try to be boss
But they wouldn't do
For nobody else, gave me a thrill
With all your faults, I
Love you still
It had to be you, wonderful you
It had to be you